Who the hell am I?
I’ve often wondered who I am and why I’m here.
I’m the least qualified person to tell you why you’re here, but I’ll tell you what I’ve uncovered for myself. If you find something useful in this for yourself, great. If not, you’ll at least get a glimpse into my unique brand of insanity.
There are 2 experiences that highly influenced what I’m about to share.
First, about 14 years ago, I was driving by myself listening to Wayne Dyer and something happened. Maybe it could be called a spiritual experience, maybe not. I don’t know.
What I do know is that I felt as if I could see this great expanse of time before and after my current lifetime. And that this life was just a blip on that continuum.
I’ve never felt so peaceful in my life and that no matter what, it all works out in the end.
I had this simultaneous realization that my ‘purpose’ was to ‘reveal my magnificence to myself and to help others to see their own’.
The second experience was about 11 years ago. I was sitting alone by a creek that feeds into the Feather River in Northern California. As I was watch trout swim in this deep pool, I completely lost myself. Instead of being Jim, I was the water.
I wasn’t just the water in the creek. I was the water in the river flowing into the Sacramento River which was flowing into the ocean, which was evaporating into clouds, from which rain was falling into that very same creek. I had this experience of being all of that at the same time.
If this is too wacky for you, that’s cool.
It seemed important to share these two experiences to frame what I’ve learned about who I am and why I’m here.
There are 2 core beliefs that come out of this for me:
1. The lines between us and them only exist in our imagination. We are all much more connected than we are separate. Shellie often asks, “Are you going to live in the trust of wholeness or the illusion of separation.”
2. Revelations of magnificence benefit everyone. Since we’re connected, any time that anyone witnesses their own magnificence we’re all lifted.
An important caveat is that this is not the egoic version of magnificence that makes one better than another, or causes harm to another. It’s the version of magnificence where we’re our best self, and that can only happen when our actions benefit those immediately impacted and the greater whole.
Any time that you see me acting out of alignment with these 2 beliefs that I claim to have, feel free to call me on it. I’ve forgotten them more times than I’ve remembered them.
Now, let’s bring in the quote for today:
“Find out who you are and be that person. That’s what your soul was put on this Earth to be. Find that truth, live that truth and everything else will come.” Ellen Degeneres, Celebrity. Born January 26, 1958
I believe that finding out who you are is a lifelong endeavor. An infinite being may not ever be able to completely find out who they are. But they can find out so much about themselves by helping others, taking on worthy challenges, and loving more than feels safe.
I know that the more I’ve done these things, the more fulfilled I am and more other things take care of themselves.
I’ve found that the process of self discovery returns greater rewards than striving for some false finish line that disappears every time you feel you’ve crossed it.
Who are you? Why are you here?